The price

Long I wait to sate my void,
Confused, lost, within my mind I'm hiding,
Searching on the inside, as my outside keeps on fighting,
Even in the nadir of disappointment,
The cloud of uncertainty pouring in fear,
The factual validity of me,
Gunning for my belief,
for a prize that I could win,
A charm that can blow over me,
A grace that can get the deluge's respect,
What a surprise!! I never expected this,
Or this is what I badly wanted,
Are a few exclamations My heart yearns,
A nectar to the heart from the cacophony around,
Those around me filled in spilled ecstasy,
After all The path ahead illuminated,
by the lustrous clarity of mind,
unwavered by the filth and glitz around,
is the ultimate prize that I crave for!!